Day Six - Saturday.

Today Rob woke up before me. This is an odd occasion. Quite a few people were still here and the weather was still nice so we put some blink on and had a slammin breakfast. BBQ bacon for the win? After everyone had gone we cleaned the house and chilled out and watched the Remake of the Omen. Rob made me vegan lasagne for dinner while we watched Britains got talent. And after that we played mario kart. I kicked his ass.
I love spending time with Rob. He is like my best friend as well as my boyfriend.

All is good.

Day Five- Friday.

So on Friday I was a little bit excited when I woke up because today was the day I was going to Rob's. Initially It was only going to be until Saturday as there was a family meal then but i managed to get out of it. Spent until 12 pm getting myself ready. I then couldnt be bothered to catch the mission of getting there, that is the best. Especially in this weather.
Too hot!!!
So i text Lauren and we arranged to catch the train to Cambridge. I got to the train station and the weird guy, who always chats me up was there. Bearing in mind he is about 70 and quite possibly the creepiest guy I have ever laid my eyes on. He goes " Are you going to see your boyfriend again,?" and i kinda looked like this at him . :/ and replied "yes" and he said " he is a verrrryyy lucky boy" and started talking to my chest. Not want.
Anyway I met Lauren at the March stop and we had a good old gossip about events and people and that. We arrived in Cambridge and Lauren does a bit of shopping whilst we are waiting for her Bf :). After we finish having a look round we end up in Starbucks, Drinking possibly the nicest drink ever. God bless strawberry fraps! <3

After this, we go and see Rob he is wearing the most ridiculous outfit in the world. We get a few laughs and go to Sams because everyone is meeting there. When everyone arrived, We all went to Asda and i found some monkeys. I then got quite hyper. :/ We all ended up at Robs house for a bbq. There were quite a few of us. The weather was lovely and the night was awesome.
After some people had left we decided to watch the Omen, and started talking about ghosts and the undead and Derek acorah. Then it was bed time. Good day.

Day four stroke five : Recap.

Oh, what a fun day. Im not being sarcastic! Actually possibly one of the best days Ive had a in a while. Today i caught up with some old friends, and to be honest i cant think why i didnt do it sooner! It was so easy to talk to them about everything. The way i been feeling lately, It was just good. The best part about this is that I feel like i can trust them. Im loving this.
SO Today i went to town, and grabbed a mocca with kaila. and we chatted about life. it was awesome. then we went and i got aggro with the woman in game.
What a con, needing id to trade a game in. fuck off.
Anyways then we met tanya and mooched around in town for a bit. Then we went to the gig
. it was pretty rad considering i had to pay 4 pound to get in aha! not want.
Hex were awesome as always. Immorality , i havent seen them in ages. Shame there was only 10 people there. It was good though, eveyone had a good catch up.

Right i better go get some sleep! .

Day three point five : A List .

So I was going to write a list of what I wanted.


Axolotl : These animals are so amazing. And real cute. They look like Mudkip from Pokemon.

A job : Would be real nice so i could get some money . I Hate being unemployed!

Mountain Dew Dunks : These would be amazing. I want them so bad.

Freddy Kruegar snowglobe : I love horror movies and the snowglobe is possibly the coolest thing I have ever seen. Im collecting snowglobes.


Studio Ghibli Museum tickets : One day, I will fullfill my ambition.

In the mean time. I would like one of these. . .

Thats it for now. Im sure I will add to this.

Day three : Changes.

So in the past week. Ive been thinking about loads and loads of stuff. I figured out I only have like 1 person i can tell anything to. That being Rob. I thought i could speak to my other friend , but lately I seem to have been ditched for a few guys. Like, fair enough she's allowed to have other friends but I cant help but feel like Im not good enough for her anymore.
Saying this though, Im happy Ive started speaking and catching up with old friends. Also, im really happy about the new friends I have made the past few months.
SO in a few months its my birthday . I have no idea what I want or what I want to do for it. Turning 23 is rubbish. I dont feel like it though. All the people I went to school with are all settled down with kids and stuff, and im still being me. Still cant cook, Still cant use the washing machine.
Things I really want to achieve by the time im 25. There is only one.
1) Go to japan.
Obviously this is my biggest ambition . Japan has always appealed to me, and my mum always said I should of been Japanese. I love everything about the place. The culture, the food, the movies, the people. Also , why im there, I want to go to Studio Ghibli Museum aswell. Studio Ghibli films are just so magical and amazing. So much better than Disney. SO much passion is put into these films. I cant wait to go my totoro tattoo! :DD:D:D:D:D
Its gonna look slammin!

Day two : Slow day

Today, I applied for over 20 jobs.
I hope I hear back from one.

Day one : Figuring out where to go.

So , pretty much, I hate being jobless. I got made redundant from basically the best job in the world. I miss Blockbusters quite alot. Its been part of my life for 2 years. With it, Ive had my fair of shit with managers and certain people. And people in my past who frankly now i cant believe i wasted my time with them.
I do not trust alot of people. In fact i could probably count the people i trust on one hand.
Trust is a word thats thrown around alot these days. To me it is so important. But my biggest enemy is myself.
I have to let go of the past and focus on the stuff and the people who have come into my life the past few months. I can honestly say ive never been happier. But there are forever the nagging voices at the back of my head saying that in the end, i WILL get hurt again.
But i will overcome it, because i know i can.
I will not let this go.